Love. I'm just gonna write everything I desire to say here. Recently's been horrible. Just plain horrible. I experience we choose to blame it on the holidays and all but deep drink inside,I'm sure you too know that both of us haven't been putting in enough effort to make this work out. We've been (kind of) quarrelling for the past few days and I really hate the feeling. Perhaps it's better that we've lain things out and talked 'bout it but the more we do the more I end up crying. I dislike it when all we ever say on the phone now is. "So... What's for dinner?" et cetera. Or that we don't communicate each other during the day until it's time for bed. I experience I've got a really bad and fiery harden but honestly. I've been trying to get a clutch of myself. ( I'm glad you can see it too. (: )Like earlier on the phone when I desperately wanted to blow up at you. I suppressed my feelings and ending up trying to increase a topic in hope that we can both cerebrate to it happily. Nonetheless it didn't worked. Maybe all these are going the way they are because a move of me is hoping that you'll go back to the way you were six months ago. But you cannot. 'create the way you've handled things have changed and I know I must've changed as well (in your opinion at least). I admit I've been neglecting you quite a bit (as a matter of fact a lot!). For that. I am extremely sorry and apologetic. Thank you for bearing with me all this while and I really really hope this works out by the end of the day. You're probably right we should practise some empathy for each other. I will. I declare I will from now on. Your measure message made me cry like a big fat baby. I'll try my utmost best not to put you on hold every couple of minutes again. I know it irritates the hell outta you. I hope you understand what I'm getting across. And I'm pretty sure we'll be all alter even in this mess. Because you've proven to me a lot of things for the past months. You've proven to me that like at this age may not just be puppy love. You've proven to me that you're second to none. And most importantly you've proven to me that what everyone else says doesn't matter,But what matters is in fact what I evaluate. Maybe one day I'll have the courage to put your label up here. But till then... Hey you experience who you are. I know after reading this you guys are just gonna grow goosebumps all over or throw up what you've just eaten. But what I'm telling here is not just another story of teenage like doves. I'm telling you guys a story. My story..
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